I hate to Say it but God must be punishing me! I went to Barnes & Noble today to buy a much needed toextbook. I'm not able to buy it online and save at least 30% because I have homework due in two days (Keep in mind..i'm angry to begin with!) So, as i'm waiting on line to pay I start browsing the "self-help" books. It certainly is a smart move of BN to put the self-help books next to the register. After all, it is resolution season! Anyway, I start skimming "Theres still time to change" and I get the worst paper cut of my life. I'm standing in line with blood running down my hand and thinking "wow, it sure isn't a good sign to cut yourself while reading a self-help book!" After that incident, I come to the conclusion that this shitty, 30 page, paperback, textbook just cost me $50. I'm suddenly feeling depressed; the way I feel the first week of every semester of college. So, I get a chocolate banana shake from starbucks and I plop down on the sofest chair I can find. I let out a huge sigh, stare straight ahead and what do I see directly in front of me? A book that I read in college when I lived in NY. That is just SO not fair! I've made changes and decisions on letting go of my unhappy thoughts. I don't want to think of that time in my life anymore or ever again yet, there it is...the one book I remember and its hitting me like a ton of bricks.
It just comes at an odd time because just yesterday I was saying to my mom "god must be punishing me" but really how much does he hate me!? It started Christmas eve when I went to get a routine oil change. They told me I needed tires and that they had a cheaper import that would save me a great deal of money. BUT I feel you get what you pay for and this is why I have credit cards. So $724 and a few sad, money-troubling tears later, I leave with four shiny new tires.
The ride home was super fun because when I went over 50MPH the whole car started shaking. They didn't balance my tires corectly and I had to waste another 2 hours to get it fixed. The following week my tire pressure light comes on. I check the air and one tire is extremly low. The light then proceeds to come on again this week (its the same damn tire again.) It looks like I have a slow leak in my brand new $175 tire!!!! I'm freakin' pissed! I'm freakin' tired! I'm freakin ready to ride the bus! grrr I'm just waiting for bad thing #3 happen lol Just Kidding! I'm not that angry. I was much angrier when the hoodlum from AP threw a rock through my back windshield! Money goes as fast as it comes. SO much for having savings! Perhaps I should invest some time into finding a sugar daddy and/or a bf? lol
In short, God, I'm sure does love me. BUT this simply must be a test of how much crap I can take before i start playing in traffic!!